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Im a filipino who works in a residential health care facility in toms river new jersey. I cater to people with mental issues. i dispense meds and do some paper works. Sometimes i help setting up appointments (and rides) with their doctors. My job actually is a tidbit of everything -  answerin calls ,callin pharmacy to follow up meds, faxin new Rx to the pharmacy , makin chart files for new residents ,givin meds ,callin ambulance and sendin resident to hospital, restrainin agitated residents or restrainin residents from fist fightin(which scares me most), callin the police for the missin resident - my job is just about everythin.  I love my job and i enjoy dealing with our residents. It's nice to be of service to these kind of people. It takes patience to deal with them due to their mental stability. Often times i got cursed because of cigarette or just because of anything they want but could not just have. sometimes it's funny to see a resident cursin or gettin wild just becuse he needs a cigarette but couldnt get one. But then i have to understand that a single cigarette could mean a thousand dollars to them. Sometimes i can't help but lash out also when i get attacked. im only a human being and i would be a hyprocrite if i say i dont lose my temper sometimes. But the most important thing is i truly understand how these people feel and react to certain situations. I always realize after my own anger or temper subsides that these people need understanding and warmth and love which i think they usually lack from their own home. They almost dont have nothing at all in life now that they are placed by the government in our facility. yes these people are supported by the us government because they cant work or cant hold a job for long due to their mental situations. These people are depressed, emotionally troubled and a lot are even psychotic(laughin and talkin to themselves, havin suicidal thoughts, cursin most of the time) . Some dont have even family. No family members come to visit them and some are even thrown out by their own family and was glad to be out of their lives. They are considered burdensome and nuisance. They are left alone by their own famly and lived on the streets or are homeless for months before they were brought to our facility. Now they have shelter and foods and got a home in our facility. But mind you, they dont stop complainin and cursin about just anythin: foods, towels and wash clothes, tissue papers, showers, toilets, cigarettes and the biggest issue is money - which most of them get a $110 in a month for their peronal needs allowance. I wonder how they spend that amount to survive in a month. they just got so lucky that Uncle Sam is very rich to support them. at least the US government has a lot of money for these kind of people.